Odell Beckham Jr opens up in deeply personal conversation on life, ball and accountability|The Pivot

…it just is something that i'm like as i sat there with i never talk about regrets because i feel like at once upon a…quotative · filler

…is something that i'm like as i sat there with i never talk about regrets because i feel like at once upon a time you know the decision you made was what you wanted at the time…proper use

…what you wanted at the time so you live with that but this is one that i feel like if i didn't get to go out there and run one route you know um it's like unfinished…proper use

…feel like if i didn't get to go out there and run one route you know um it's like unfinished and uh my pops my mom's teaching me growing up like we never would start something and…filler · filler

…one route you know um it's like unfinished and uh my pops my mom's teaching me growing up like we never would start something and not finish it you know like that's just that was just the…filler · filler

…my mom's teaching me growing up like we never would start something and not finish it you know like that's just that was just the rule of the house the way that everything went down i just…filler · filler

…was just the rule of the house the way that everything went down i just can't go out like that and live the rest of my life with having to even think like about my career and…proper use

…just can't go out like that and live the rest of my life with having to even think like about my career and then be like well how did i finish it short answer nah i don't…filler · filler

…live the rest of my life with having to even think like about my career and then be like well how did i finish it short answer nah i don't know what it is i think it's…quotative · filler

…you know that's a long story there i wish i could have finished that game because it was like the moment i had with god before that game was just me knowing all i was saying to…filler · filler

…with god before that game was just me knowing all i was saying to him was thank you like thank you for this opportunity like win lose a draw like thank you for everything that i've been…filler · filler

…just me knowing all i was saying to him was thank you like thank you for this opportunity like win lose a draw like thank you for everything that i've been through in my life for this…filler · filler

…was saying to him was thank you like thank you for this opportunity like win lose a draw like thank you for everything that i've been through in my life for this moment and i already know…filler · filler

…that i've been through in my life for this moment and i already know that i'm gonna shine like thank you for allowing me you know everything that they got to say about me and yeah like…filler · filler

…like thank you for allowing me you know everything that they got to say about me and yeah like it was that moment of like yeah go do your thing he gave me the reward in the…filler · filler

…you know everything that they got to say about me and yeah like it was that moment of like yeah go do your thing he gave me the reward in the end but it was like i…filler · filler

…of like yeah go do your thing he gave me the reward in the end but it was like i wanted that i wanted that day i was ready i was prepped you know so it's not…quotative · filler

…and beat jerry record and all that and you know a couple a couple of things happened where like realistically it's not happening it ain't about the ring it's just about that love in my heart in…filler · filler

…politics get into it and things happen to where you kind of get lost in that road of like man do i really love this and that was a tough thing last year where i feel like…filler · filler

…like man do i really love this and that was a tough thing last year where i feel like you're getting paid x amount right and for me i'm in a place where like we're over the…proper use

…where i feel like you're getting paid x amount right and for me i'm in a place where like we're over the hill thinking about you know the next couple steps and it was like it was…filler · filler

…place where like we're over the hill thinking about you know the next couple steps and it was like it was really hard for me to take the thing that i love the most in miami and…filler · filler

…most in miami and walk away from it and and find that peace in my heart that resolve like it was very it was the one of the most difficult things that i love but it had…filler · filler

…was the one of the most difficult things that i love but it had become it it became like poison to me like something that you love so much that was good for you that now it's…proper use

…the most difficult things that i love but it had become it it became like poison to me like something that you love so much that was good for you that now it's harming me you know…filler · filler

…is gonna set me up for the rest of my life and make sure my kids kids kids like are good and i'm spending all my time on this and i'm not getting the reward at all…filler · filler

…on this and i'm not getting the reward at all i'm not even getting it in my heart like i'm not you know like a bit of resentment to like have to wake up and then go…filler · filler

…getting the reward at all i'm not even getting it in my heart like i'm not you know like a bit of resentment to like have to wake up and then go into and go into that…filler · filler

…not even getting it in my heart like i'm not you know like a bit of resentment to like have to wake up and then go into and go into that building even though it's a blessing…filler · filler

…a privilege and all those things to be in the league it just had become it it became like poison to me and like to be able to it was like a real grown man thing for…proper use

…things to be in the league it just had become it it became like poison to me and like to be able to it was like a real grown man thing for me to be able to…filler · filler

…just had become it it became like poison to me and like to be able to it was like a real grown man thing for me to be able to like put that down to actually be…filler · filler

…to be able to it was like a real grown man thing for me to be able to like put that down to actually be able to be like you know what that's it like i'm drawing…filler · filler

…man thing for me to be able to like put that down to actually be able to be like you know what that's it like i'm drawing a line with myself there's other things that are more…quotative · filler

…able to like put that down to actually be able to be like you know what that's it like i'm drawing a line with myself there's other things that are more important i'm spending all this time…filler · filler

…i'm not even playing i'm not even all of the you know i never tell anybody business but like all the things that i was told and sold on like for whatever reason it just didn't happen…filler · filler

…know i never tell anybody business but like all the things that i was told and sold on like for whatever reason it just didn't happen and that's okay like it is what it is but for…filler · filler

…that i was told and sold on like for whatever reason it just didn't happen and that's okay like it is what it is but for me i'm looking at it i'm spending this time away i'm…filler · filler

…me i'm looking at it i'm spending this time away i'm not gonna see my son now mentally like it's affecting me just you know my everyday um like i really needed to just step back and…filler · filler

…i'm not gonna see my son now mentally like it's affecting me just you know my everyday um like i really needed to just step back and focus on this and get this sorted and once i…filler · filler

…really needed to just step back and focus on this and get this sorted and once i feel like all of this is solid because they feel like with football being shaky and this being shaky i'm…proper use

…this and get this sorted and once i feel like all of this is solid because they feel like with football being shaky and this being shaky i'm not really focusing on either one and i'm just…proper use

…really focusing on either one and i'm just in the middle yeah trying to chase two rabbits almost like you know and i can't let both of them get away you know so i had to just…filler · filler

…and i can't let both of them get away you know so i had to just pick one like honestly and it was like let me stand on this over here i don't think i'm gonna be…filler · filler

…of them get away you know so i had to just pick one like honestly and it was like let me stand on this over here i don't think i'm gonna be missed anyways at miami and…quotative · filler

…know oh i won't i wonder what they're doing it's third and seven it rings but um it's like for me it was it was truly getting myself straight like as a man i went through some…filler · filler

…and seven it rings but um it's like for me it was it was truly getting myself straight like as a man i went through some hard times leaving football putting down what had you know i…filler · filler

…movement and the culture and all that i know that it's bigger than just football i always felt like i was put on earth to change it and i know like not in a conceited way that…proper use

…than just football i always felt like i was put on earth to change it and i know like not in a conceited way that like you know thinking like that but like yeah i want to…filler · filler

…i was put on earth to change it and i know like not in a conceited way that like you know thinking like that but like yeah i want to be someone who could change um and…filler · filler

…earth to change it and i know like not in a conceited way that like you know thinking like that but like yeah i want to be someone who could change um and so it was really…filler · filler

…it and i know like not in a conceited way that like you know thinking like that but like yeah i want to be someone who could change um and so it was really me like getting…filler · filler

…but like yeah i want to be someone who could change um and so it was really me like getting myself right it was really me looking myself in the mirror and dealing with like my shit…filler · filler

…really me like getting myself right it was really me looking myself in the mirror and dealing with like my shit as a man and i feel like it was kind of the first time because you…filler · filler

…me looking myself in the mirror and dealing with like my shit as a man and i feel like it was kind of the first time because you know when you're playing football for so long you…proper use

…playing football for so long you kind of get you kind of get sheltered you kind of get like blanketed we protected for so long like it's all we gotta do is play football like and then…filler · filler

…of get you kind of get sheltered you kind of get like blanketed we protected for so long like it's all we gotta do is play football like and then we deal with the people who gonna…filler · filler

…of get like blanketed we protected for so long like it's all we gotta do is play football like and then we deal with the people who gonna talk about us for our performance or the things…filler · filler

…talk about us for our performance or the things we do or whatever it is but it was like it was always just football and to feel whether it was self or stripped of that and to…filler · filler

…it was self or stripped of that and to just be standing there as a man it was like in that place of life like i didn't like necessarily where i was at like as a man…filler · filler